At the request of many, here is an update. 2 days late... Sorry. Life got in the way.
Four years ago (I know, I can't believe it either), I had my right leg amputated below knee. I thought I would never survive. Even after all the other stuff, I thought surely that would kill me. Turns out, no. It only motivates me to be a better me. A more mindful me. A happy me.
I went through many trying times. I thought that there's no chance anyone would ever fall in love with me and all of my flaws. However, my boyfriend found me and does. He loves my quirky, my crazy, my heart, mind, soul, and body. He doesn't care that I'm not perfect. He loves me for me.
Yes, that means everyone who reassured me of that was right. I admit it. That's really hard to see, though, when your whole life gets turned upside down.
I have a wonderful job where I get to work with kids and the most amazing people. I am constantly inspired by those around me. I was worried (this day some years ago), that I would never be able to have a job where I'm on my feet. Turns out I can do that, too!! I teach; that's my superpower. Teaching is not how it used to be. I'm on my feet about 8 hours a day.
I hit about 8-10,000 steps a day. I make diner after work. I keep up with the housework. I grocery shop (still my fave). I overcome.
I know I've come a long way, but I'm just doing what I have to do to survive. I may have lost my ankle, but I've gained SO much more. I have a love for life and all the eccentricities that come with it. My life isn't perfect, but it's perfect for me. It's nothing like I thought it would be. I make the best out of everything and still take strides to beat the odds.
Now, I still have those "why me?" days, but they are few and far between. I'm on my 7th (8th?) prosthetic. I am in a whole new system. It's an Ottobock vacuum system and I LOVE it!!! I still find pieces of glass in my hands and arms. Wednesday, I had a "big" piece removed. I saw my favorite doctor and he dug it out. I was in pain, but it's worth it!!
My life is not perfect, but I love it!! If you told me 4 years ago my life would turn out this way, I would never have believed you. However, it's just right for me.