Day 2: Today I am thankful for my family; especially my parents who hate that they can't just kiss it and make it better anymore. They would do anything for me and I would do anything for them. They have created me and taught me how to live and love. My heart and soul are a product of their love and support throughout the years. They're always there, ready to help me get back up or give me a dose of reality. Thank you, mom and dad!! I love you both so much!!
I've had quite a few doctors come by today; it's looking like I'm having the BIG, BAD surgery tomorrow for sure. The big 1-8. It's been a loooooong time coming. This is a 4-18 hour surgery. Basically my plastic surgeon will transplant a muscle from my left thigh to the hole in my right ankle. This is a serious surgery because my surgeon has to connect each small blood vessel, capillary, and what not. However, if this fails, I have one more chance with a stomach or back muscle, and then I will lose my lower leg; as in it will be amputated. I need prayers that this will not happen and my muscle flap will take. I don't think I'm strong enough to be an amputee. I just hope it takes and God had me wait so it will take.
|Ex-fix before the surgery.|
My mentor teacher came to see me today! Her ADDness mixed with mine kept my mind off any impending doom I was feeling. I just love her!! Our personalities really click. Her visit brightened my day. My grandparents also came to visit me. We talked mostly about hoarders (there was a marathon on) and about my being in the hospital. I need to be out by Thanksgiving I'm told.
When I was in the ER, I thought, "Oh, a broken arm and leg, I'll be out for 6 weeks and be back to myself." How naive was I?! I never thought I would be in the hospital over 76 days. I never thought I would miss Halloween, Lord's Acre, anything. Yet, here I am missing what seems like so much. I know it's not, but it feels like it.
All kinds of thoughts and prayers will be especially appreciated tomorrow. Thank you for all you have done so far! I will reach way deep down into my soul, pull out my doubt, give it to God, and get my brave face and self out for tomorrow.
And that's life...